Thought #21

There I go again, not blogging for about a month or so. That’s what high school does to you.

So this year I am taking an AP English class, and may I say it is killing me. I know what you’re thinking, “You’re writing a book and in your it says your favorite subject is English, so why are you suffering?” I’ll tell you why. The pieces we read in that class, I just can’t relate to them or they just don’t spark up my interest. There are many things that I am interested in, for example Greek Mythology, so how come I can’t be interested in nonfiction pieces? I love to read all sorts of stuff, but now that I think about it, all I read that I enjoy is fiction. I really love fiction books! Things that talk about magic, dragons, different lands; that’s what really catches my attention.
Reading things like politics or the latest new just isn’t for me. I’m interested in Criminal Justice and investigative journalism but that’s pretty much it for me. I like to live out of reality because, “The human world, it’s a mess”. When I’m reading or even writing fiction, I feel myself being transported to another world or realm. It’s incredible what other people can imagine. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I love fiction and I’d rather just study that then nonfiction. Don’t get me wrong, nonfiction is brilliant too, but I just like fiction better. Who knows maybe in the future I’ll stumble upon a nonfiction piece that I will enjoy.

*Whoever is reading this, whether you are a follower or not (if your not then you should hit that follow button:) comment down below some subjects you want me to talk about! Or just ask me a bunch of questions and I’ll answer them in my next blog post! Sorry once agin for not posting I will try to post as much content as I can from now on and I know that I say that a lot but I really mean it this time! -Sonya Rama

Thought #20

Woah! Time flies by, I didn’t even realize how long I’ve been offline. Sorry!

Okay let’s be real here, writing a book is not an easy task. It takes time and effort to complete a novel to someone’s liking. I’ve been writing my book for over three years now and I’ve changed so many things throughout the story. Editing is also a pain because then you start to think, “Wow I really am a terrible writer.” Writing a book is very scary, especially if you don’t have someone to help you or tell you the basics of writing one. Everyone says that anyone can write a book and yes that is true, but it’s not like someone can write a book in one night. That’s not how the process works.

Again, it takes time to write a book. With the editing, re writing, and the cloud of self-doubt above your head. I know that when I’m re reading my chapter I start to feel as though whatever I wrote is the worst thing I’ve ever read. I’m afraid to show people my book, because I’m afraid they aren’t going to take the moral of my theme to heart. (I would tell you the theme but that wold mean spoilers:)

I’m writing these books, because I want them to mean something to someone. I want someone to look at my book and say, “This book inspires me.” If someone ever tells me that, I will know that I did my job. I write to inspire people and to tell my readers very important messages that I’ve learned throughout my life. That’s my goal and also to be the next J,K. Rowling. So yeah, it take a while for someone to write a book, but at the end it’s going to be so worth it.

Thought #19

Have you ever wondered what your life is going to be like? What your future is going to hold? Where are you going to be? Things like that. I’ve always wondered because I’m very curious when it comes to those kinds of things. I’ve always wondered, what am I going to do with my life. I have a plan, of course, but sometimes life throws you a curve ball and things get messed up so you have to be ready for everything and anything. I know that things aren’t going to go as planned, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t stop trying to be what I want to be.

My entire life, I wanted to be something that I knew deep down I couldn’t. Now that I know that, I’ve extended my options. That’s how I found my passion for writing. I’ve always had people tell me how good my writing is and I never realized myself how good I was until I found out. Now I’m going towards writing for my future and I work hard for that future. Writing makes me happy because it’s a story that I get to tell and no one gets to tell me what to write.

Being a writer isn’t easy, especially if you want your name to be known. I want my name to be known, I want people to see me and tell me that I’ve inspired them to be something. That’s my goal in life. Not to be just a writer, I want to inspire other people and I want to help other people through my writings. I know what I want to be in life, now that only thing I have to do in order to achieve my goal is to work hard and never give up.

Thought #18

Do you know what agathokakological means? A person who’s composed of both good and evil. In this world no one randomly wakes up one day and says, “I’m gonna be the hero” or “I’m gonna be the villain”. It doesn’t work that way. The only real thing that can change a persons heart is pain. Pain is something that everyone eventually feels in their lives. Some can move past it and others can’t bare it. Pain is what drives out the inner you; it’s what brings out your alter ego. Pain isn’t something that you can see, it’s something that you feel and most people don’t realize that. When you see a hero you look up to them when you need hope, but what does the hero get to look up to? You see pain either brings out the best in people or the worst. And people are right, pain usually brings out the worst and rarely the best of people but, they still have a reason for being what they’ve become.

Everyone has a heart whether it be black or gold, but the “bad guy” just learned how to use their heart less because they’ve been hurt too much and they just can’t stand it anymore. The “bad guy” just needs help. They need someone to help them drive the darkness out of them and replace it with light; with good. Inside every black heart is a speak of gold waiting to erupt again.

You can’t control what pain brings you but you can control the way you handle the darkness that wants to consume you.

Thought #17

If you know me personally then you know that I love animation. I’m talking about animation movies and TV shows. For example, one of my all time favorite animation movies is Peter Pan and Rise of the Guardians (The one with Jack Frost. Btw I love Jack Frost). I also watch animation shows like Fairy Tail and Danny Phantom. I heard about anime a lot when I was in middle school but I never really watched it until I was in high school. The very first show that I watched was Attack on Titan. I liked it but it was a bit too scary for me. I like the anime with funny moments and stuff, like Fairy Tail.

Right now I am obsessed with a show called Miraculous: Tales of Ladybug and Chat Noir and yes I understand that it is a kids show but I don’t care, I love that show. There is suppose to be a season two for it and I’m waiting here every day for that notification to come on my phone. Like my heart keeps pounding in my chest from the excitement and I don’t think I can survive another minute.

If you guys like animation then you should check out Miraculous and also Fairy Tail if you haven’t yet. Also you should comment what shows you would recommend for me to watch. I don’t just watch animation I also watch shows like The Flash, Arrow, and Supergirl don’t worry. Anyways have a great day!

(This thought was very random haha)

Thought #16

Ah finally summer break! I am so excited because now I can work on my book without interruptions from homework or studying. (If you don’t count summer readings and a class of summer school) My goal is to finish writing my book by the end of summer so next year I can edit and rewrite.

It’s taken me three years to write this book and I am still not finished. I actually rewrote the entire book because I printed it out to read it and I was so lost. You’d think that since I’m the author that I would be able to understand it, but I was lost the entire way. When I was writing the book at first I thought to myself, “I’m a genius! This is amazing!”. Then I read it, and I was like, “What is this?” I actually think that this time it sounds more better, is a lot more interesting, and more easier to comprehend. I’m almost to the halfway point in my book, but I still have to go back and add more things and dialogue. It’s coming together very well though and I’m happy about it.

It’s not easy to write a book that’s for sure. It takes dedication, creativity, and every single writing skill that you have up your sleeve to make your book a masterpiece.

Thought #15

Safe haven, a place of refuge and security. Everyone has one, their favorite park, or they’re favorite store. Mine’s my desk. Everyday I sit at my desk and I never feel any safer when I’m sitting on my chair. When I’m at my desk, I feel free. I write, do DIY projects, and I pour my heart out into my journals. One of my favorite things about my desk is the fact that I can do whatever I want to. I can write whatever my heart desires, I can create whatever DIY project I can make, and I can be myself without having that feeling of impressing someone. I can be me, with no judging.

I also have a mental safe haven as well. You see, I create fantasy worlds in my head. I have so many that I can escape too. But I also have my original characters that I talk to. Yup, I talk to my characters in my head. It may sound strange but I think it’s perfectly normal. Instead of talking to people in real like, I talk to the ones I create. Even when I’m laying down in bed, you can hear me whispering in the dark and when you do just keep in mind that I’m not talking to myself, I’m talking to one of my characters. Every author does that, at least I think they do. I’m not quite sure since I’ve never met any other teen author.

That doesn’t matter though. I feel safe when I talk to them or when I go to my fantasy worlds. I feel safe when I’m at my desk and surrounded by all of my DIY projects. I’ve said this multiple times but my writings and projects mean a lot to me. They express who I am in many different ways whether one sees it or not. All of the posters that are in front of my desk have helped me create projects or have helped me with my writing. I can’t explain how exactly they’ve helped me but they do. My projects, writings, journals, and characters all mean so much to me. I wouldn’t have survived any hard task without them. It may sound silly to most people, but they are my safe haven. From now to the end of time.

Thought #14

One of my favorite Disney movies is Peter Pan. Can you imagine flying away to a far away island, escaping your troubles? All my life I dreamed about Neverland, wondering what the sand would feel like between my fingers, wondering how far I could fly. I know that everyone has to grow up but honestly I don’t want to. No one does really. It’s fun being a kid, but we don’t have power over time. I know that I have to grow up, I know that I have to face reality no matter how hard I try to escape it. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop believing. I never will.

Every day I wear Peter’s flute around my neck and a lot of people question me on why I wear it but it’s pretty simple. I wear it so I can hear the sounds of his flute, so I can show people that I will never stop believing in fairies, Pixie Dust, or Peter Pan. That’s just me. I believe in mermaids, magic, fairies, princess, everything. I may have to grow up, but I will always believe no matter what.

Thought #13

School. The place where most teenagers dread, and the place that gives us teenagers stress. I get it, we go to school to get an education, but why must it be so stressful?

If we don’t get good grades, we don’t get into a good college. If we fail a test, it brings our grade down so much and we work hard to bring it back up to an A. I don’t think people understands the struggle of school. How hard we work to make people proud of us, to prove others wrong.

I struggle a lot in school. I’m not as smart as most people, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t do it. I work so hard, each and every day. I learned my lesson last year: do it right the first time. I worked my butt of to get my grades to where they are now, and I am so proud of myself. I know that I can do better though, so I’m going to.

I want to go to NYU for college, that’s my goal. I want to get a degree in Creative Writing, I want to be one of the best writers out there, so working and practicing is what I have to do to make that happen. I know that school is tough, but so am I! No matter what happens, I’m gonna keep working hard, and I’m going to keep writing to get better. I’ve got this!

Thought #12

Why does people judge others? What’s the point in that? “You’re a teenager, you shouldn’t be doing this, or that. Why are you doing that? What’s wrong with you?”

Nothing. Nothing is wrong with me. It’s not my fault that I’m always home. It’s not my fault that I prefer to eat lunch alone. I have reasons for doing what I do. I don’t do anything for attention, I would never do that. But I don’t just do something without a point. Let me just put it like this, I’m a very nice person. If you’re nice to me, I’m gonna be nice to you, but if you’re getting in my face and being rude, don’t expect me to not say anything, cause I will. I may be quiet, but I know how to use my voice when I need to.

And if I like to watch cartoons and stay in my room, what’s it to you? Why do I have to change, when there’s nothing wrong with me. If you don’t like what I like, fine. I can’t force you to like the things that I like. Everyone has different opinions on a certain subject, but if mine isn’t the same as yours why do you have to tell me that I’m wrong and need to change the way I think?

So, I’m gonna make this crystal clear right here, right now. My name is Sonya Rama. I am an Indian, and I’m proud of that. My favorite color is pink, I love to write, read, and do DIY projects. I love Disney and animation movies/TV shows. I love to eat noodles, and my favorite type of food is Chinese, Thai, and Italian. I love dark, and scary things, but I also love cute, and sparkly things. I love Bollywood music, glitter, red roses, chocolates, and yes I have a crush on a fictional character. I don’t like reality and I try to escape it as much as I possibly can, but I know deep down that there is no escaping it. I have a very operative imagination. I’m super shy at first, but once you start talking to me I won’t shut up. I’m not that smart, but I try my hardest at everything. There are days when sometimes I want to give up, but I don’t because there’s always another way around my problem.

There’s a lot more to me than I say. But this is who I am, and I’m not changing any time soon. I’m perfect the way I am.