Thought #23

Pinterest is my favorite app of all time. If you ever see me on my phone, I am most likely on Pinterest looking at either DIY projects, journal pages, or quotes. I always use this app mainly for writing motivation. Every writer has that phase of them constantly saying, “I’m not good enough.” or “This is the worst story I have ever read in my entire lifetime.” When I feel that way I like to go on Pinterest and read some quotes about writing motivations and every single one that I’ve read makes me feel better about myself and my writings.

Now whenever I write my book I am always thinking, “Oh my gosh, my readers are going to  want to put the book down after reading the first paragraph of the prologue.” But that might not be true. I have something to say and I know that there are people out there who want to listen; who are listening. I know that not many people read my blog, but that’s okay because I still know that there are people out there who takes the time to read my thoughts, DIY projects, and short stories. I may not know what they are thinking when they are reading them, but I know that they are listening to what I have to say.

I’ve always been scared to post a short story or poem on my blog because I feel as though I am not as good as the other teen writers and it’s true I’m not. But that doesn’t mean that other people aren’t going to want to read my writings, it just means that I have to keep practicing until I get to the point where I am fully confident in sharing my work. So I guess the overall theme of this is, even though I’m not the best writer it doesn’t mean that people aren’t going to read my writings and it doesn’t mean that I’m not going to be an author. It just means that I have to work a little harder if I want to be a better writer than I was yesterday.


Thought #22

One emotion that I realize a lot of people think that is a bad thing to feel is scared, afraid. I feel as though people are ashamed of feeling that way. I could be wrong, but that’s just how I feel.

I don’t get scared that easily but, last week I got really scared. I got sick and my parents were out of town. When I get sick, my parents (mainly my mom) is with me and next to me. Since I was only with my older sister, I felt scared. I called them every night and cried on the phone with them because, I felt scared. I was terrified. I hate throwing up, it’s one of the things I don’t like to do alone. I prefer to have someone next to me when that kind of thing happens and since my mom wasn’t there, I felt scared. The kids in my family were calling me a wimp and such but, they don’t know what it’s like. To be alone and afraid. I wasn’t really “alone”, I guess I just missed my parents and I just wanted them next to me.

The point is, it’s okay to feel scared. There’s nothing wrong with having that feeling. The only thing that you need to do though, is still fight even when your knees are shaking. Don’t lay down your sword and surrender just because you see someone who’s powerful, keep your guard up and just keep fighting. That’s what you have to do in life, all through life you have to keep fighting and you can’t give up no matter how scary the journey may be. Overcoming your fears is what you have to do in order to not be afraid anymore. “Fear has two meaning: Forget Everything And Run OR Face Everything And Rise.”

It’s okay to be afraid but, just keep fighting.

Thought #21

I’ve been reading a lot lately (yah!) and I can’t tell you how many good books I’ve read. As of right now I am reading the Chronicles of Narina and I just finished the first book in the series and I love it already! I watched the movies and ever since I got back into reading, I’ve been itching to read the books and now since I finally have the book, I can’t seem to put it down! I recently took it to a dinner party and I finished the first book there in less than two hours. My favorite character of all is Aslan. He has such great wisdom and he speaks the most beautiful words you can hear. “You doubt your value. Don’t run from who you are.” I always find nice quotes from him and I try to memorize them so I can use them in the future.

Another book that I recently read was The Hobbit. I loved that book so much. It had so much imagery I could picture the entire story in my head! I honestly don’t have a favorite character in The Hobbit, maybe Bilbo Baggins because he’s just so awkward and adorable (Not to mention brave. He took the risk of talking to Smaug!!) I enjoyed this book mainly because it was magic and adventures.

My favorite genre of books is fantasy, adventure, and mystery. (If you like a good mystery book then read, “Deep and Dark and Dangerous” that’s an amazing book.) What’s your favorite books? Put them in the comments as well as some other book suggestions so I have more to read! Until next time my fellow readers!

Thought #20

There I go again, not blogging for about a month or so. That’s what high school does to you.

So this year I am taking an AP English class, and may I say it is killing me. I know what you’re thinking, “You’re writing a book and in your it says your favorite subject is English, so why are you suffering?” I’ll tell you why. The pieces we read in that class, I just can’t relate to them or they just don’t spark up my interest. There are many things that I am interested in, for example Greek Mythology, so how come I can’t be interested in nonfiction pieces? I love to read all sorts of stuff, but now that I think about it, all I read that I enjoy is fiction. I really love fiction books! Things that talk about magic, dragons, different lands; that’s what really catches my attention.
Reading things like politics or the latest new just isn’t for me. I’m interested in Criminal Justice and investigative journalism but that’s pretty much it for me. I like to live out of reality because, “The human world, it’s a mess”. When I’m reading or even writing fiction, I feel myself being transported to another world or realm. It’s incredible what other people can imagine. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I love fiction and I’d rather just study that then nonfiction. Don’t get me wrong, nonfiction is brilliant too, but I just like fiction better. Who knows maybe in the future I’ll stumble upon a nonfiction piece that I will enjoy.

*Whoever is reading this, whether you are a follower or not (if your not then you should hit that follow button:) comment down below some subjects you want me to talk about! Or just ask me a bunch of questions and I’ll answer them in my next blog post! Sorry once agin for not posting I will try to post as much content as I can from now on and I know that I say that a lot but I really mean it this time! -Sonya Rama

Thought #19

Woah! Time flies by, I didn’t even realize how long I’ve been offline. Sorry!

Okay let’s be real here, writing a book is not an easy task. It takes time and effort to complete a novel to someone’s liking. I’ve been writing my book for over three years now and I’ve changed so many things throughout the story. Editing is also a pain because then you start to think, “Wow I really am a terrible writer.” Writing a book is very scary, especially if you don’t have someone to help you or tell you the basics of writing one. Everyone says that anyone can write a book and yes that is true, but it’s not like someone can write a book in one night. That’s not how the process works.

Again, it takes time to write a book. With the editing, re writing, and the cloud of self-doubt above your head. I know that when I’m re reading my chapter I start to feel as though whatever I wrote is the worst thing I’ve ever read. I’m afraid to show people my book, because I’m afraid they aren’t going to take the moral of my theme to heart. (I would tell you the theme but that wold mean spoilers:)

I’m writing these books, because I want them to mean something to someone. I want someone to look at my book and say, “This book inspires me.” If someone ever tells me that, I will know that I did my job. I write to inspire people and to tell my readers very important messages that I’ve learned throughout my life. That’s my goal and also to be the next J,K. Rowling. So yeah, it take a while for someone to write a book, but at the end it’s going to be so worth it.

Thought #18

Have you ever wondered what your life is going to be like? What your future is going to hold? Where are you going to be? Things like that. I’ve always wondered because I’m very curious when it comes to those kinds of things. I’ve always wondered, what am I going to do with my life. I have a plan, of course, but sometimes life throws you a curve ball and things get messed up so you have to be ready for everything and anything. I know that things aren’t going to go as planned, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t stop trying to be what I want to be.

My entire life, I wanted to be something that I knew deep down I couldn’t. Now that I know that, I’ve extended my options. That’s how I found my passion for writing. I’ve always had people tell me how good my writing is and I never realized myself how good I was until I found out. Now I’m going towards writing for my future and I work hard for that future. Writing makes me happy because it’s a story that I get to tell and no one gets to tell me what to write.

Being a writer isn’t easy, especially if you want your name to be known. I want my name to be known, I want people to see me and tell me that I’ve inspired them to be something. That’s my goal in life. Not to be just a writer, I want to inspire other people and I want to help other people through my writings. I know what I want to be in life, now that only thing I have to do in order to achieve my goal is to work hard and never give up.

Thought #17

Do you know what agathokakological means? A person who’s composed of both good and evil. In this world no one randomly wakes up one day and says, “I’m gonna be the hero” or “I’m gonna be the villain”. It doesn’t work that way. The only real thing that can change a persons heart is pain. Pain is something that everyone eventually feels in their lives. Some can move past it and others can’t bare it. Pain is what drives out the inner you; it’s what brings out your alter ego. Pain isn’t something that you can see, it’s something that you feel and most people don’t realize that. When you see a hero you look up to them when you need hope, but what does the hero get to look up to? You see pain either brings out the best in people or the worst. And people are right, pain usually brings out the worst and rarely the best of people but, they still have a reason for being what they’ve become.

Everyone has a heart whether it be black or gold, but the “bad guy” just learned how to use their heart less because they’ve been hurt too much and they just can’t stand it anymore. The “bad guy” just needs help. They need someone to help them drive the darkness out of them and replace it with light; with good. Inside every black heart is a speak of gold waiting to erupt again.

You can’t control what pain brings you but you can control the way you handle the darkness that wants to consume you.

Thought #16

Ah finally summer break! I am so excited because now I can work on my book without interruptions from homework or studying. (If you don’t count summer readings and a class of summer school) My goal is to finish writing my book by the end of summer so next year I can edit and rewrite.

It’s taken me three years to write this book and I am still not finished. I actually rewrote the entire book because I printed it out to read it and I was so lost. You’d think that since I’m the author that I would be able to understand it, but I was lost the entire way. When I was writing the book at first I thought to myself, “I’m a genius! This is amazing!”. Then I read it, and I was like, “What is this?” I actually think that this time it sounds more better, is a lot more interesting, and more easier to comprehend. I’m almost to the halfway point in my book, but I still have to go back and add more things and dialogue. It’s coming together very well though and I’m happy about it.

It’s not easy to write a book that’s for sure. It takes dedication, creativity, and every single writing skill that you have up your sleeve to make your book a masterpiece.

Thought #15

Safe haven, a place of refuge and security. Everyone has one, their favorite park, or they’re favorite store. Mine’s my desk. Everyday I sit at my desk and I never feel any safer when I’m sitting on my chair. When I’m at my desk, I feel free. I write, do DIY projects, and I pour my heart out into my journals. One of my favorite things about my desk is the fact that I can do whatever I want to. I can write whatever my heart desires, I can create whatever DIY project I can make, and I can be myself without having that feeling of impressing someone. I can be me, with no judging.

I also have a mental safe haven as well. You see, I create fantasy worlds in my head. I have so many that I can escape too. But I also have my original characters that I talk to. Yup, I talk to my characters in my head. It may sound strange but I think it’s perfectly normal. Instead of talking to people in real like, I talk to the ones I create. Even when I’m laying down in bed, you can hear me whispering in the dark and when you do just keep in mind that I’m not talking to myself, I’m talking to one of my characters. Every author does that, at least I think they do. I’m not quite sure since I’ve never met any other teen author.

That doesn’t matter though. I feel safe when I talk to them or when I go to my fantasy worlds. I feel safe when I’m at my desk and surrounded by all of my DIY projects. I’ve said this multiple times but my writings and projects mean a lot to me. They express who I am in many different ways whether one sees it or not. All of the posters that are in front of my desk have helped me create projects or have helped me with my writing. I can’t explain how exactly they’ve helped me but they do. My projects, writings, journals, and characters all mean so much to me. I wouldn’t have survived any hard task without them. It may sound silly to most people, but they are my safe haven. From now to the end of time.

Thought #14

One of my favorite Disney movies is Peter Pan. Can you imagine flying away to a far away island, escaping your troubles? All my life I dreamed about Neverland, wondering what the sand would feel like between my fingers, wondering how far I could fly. I know that everyone has to grow up but honestly I don’t want to. No one does really. It’s fun being a kid, but we don’t have power over time. I know that I have to grow up, I know that I have to face reality no matter how hard I try to escape it. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop believing. I never will.

Every day I wear Peter’s flute around my neck and a lot of people question me on why I wear it but it’s pretty simple. I wear it so I can hear the sounds of his flute, so I can show people that I will never stop believing in fairies, Pixie Dust, or Peter Pan. That’s just me. I believe in mermaids, magic, fairies, princess, everything. I may have to grow up, but I will always believe no matter what.